Hi. I'm 32 years old and married to my best friend. We just had our first baby, Gray. We really, really love him. This blog has been the escape for my feelings, questions, excitement, fears and the joy I felt in my ten months as a pregnant lady.

Now I'm a mom....who knows what's next.

This morning I woke up sad,  but couldn’t put my finger on why. We’re all healthy, work is good, life is great. So what was it?

Dooce.

Let me back up.

I couldn’t fall asleep last night, and had resorted to my google reader on my phone so that I wouldn’t wake up Jackson with the reading light.

As I meandered through world news, fashion photos, DIY crafts that I save but will never do, and celebrity gossip, I came upon this post.

I’ve read Heather’s blog, Dooce, for years now. Back when she and her self-proclaimed dorky best friend/husband had their first child, dealt with post-partum depression, starting blogging full-time, working together, renovating their home, buying a new one, battling depression, having a second child, and the stories of their crazy dogs.

I’ve come to care about what happens in her life and her family much the way I would about a friend of my own, and over the years I have related to so much she’s written about. Life/work balance, having a drug-free natural birth, and more.

So while it sounds crazy because I’ve never met her before, I feel connected to her story, and her world, because she opens it up for the rest of us to see. Writing through a blog has been called many things…selfish, narcissistic, therapeutic, community-building, open, judgemental, and so much more.

For me, it has allowed me to write down what I’m thinking through and learning on a daily basis, and to learn from others. And when those others encounter something that you didn’t see coming, like a separation in a marriage or thoughts of suicide, it throws you for a loop.

Even if you’ve never met that person. You can still care.

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